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2017/12/31

soft: another hat trick

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Guattari repudiated Lacan yet some of his followers  think he was a poet, but he was no more that. no.   He smoked cigars!




ha
I prefer cigarettes. and roses, an velvet. and eyes, yours i saw, as the comfort of softness


there is a tale . finding between the spaces  of country, ocean, book, continent. How
indigent we are to live our lives!

what smoke of harps.

sending thoughts of protection   ~


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2017/12/11

how about ?




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     how about Iceland?



                                                   how come you were ?


                     Ah that's another story,  a tale spun and wreathed with long rocks, and golden leaf,




                         ~                                                                             `

~what



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     what were you doing in Ireland?     spying



                                                                            for God, if you don't mind   ,




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2017/12/08

twice you thought

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 twice you thought you were someone else failing that me wondering

        about the hook of your hand the turn of your waist
                   
                        the circling of your eyes

                                    the twinning your hope and mine in the sunrise weave of  the sky

                            (and) ran we ran down the road raising dust and love, breath all awry with  ,




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2017/12/04

Italy




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  tramping the hills  near Pisa  P.  in your  backpocket

             one glance toward the hills Padua

                        rain came went splattering,

                            sun spattered pavement




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you thought



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   you thought reaching a bridge in the water's where you'd find me
      but her kiss was me was mine holding arm in arm round the lake

    her arms circling your waist was I and me holding the darling beloved
                      escaped to me of all men

     Now if Jill got dramatic she'd writer ' crucified in the sun' !


                               what hyperbole!




 but beauty is what r'e we speaking about an fear, fear in the  body being beaten

 as-you walk the street, strangers jumping out pounding your face into the ground

that was in your body, which in this instance,is me, mine, the me I, the one what's not fictive


 but reigned

   in but fictionalizing it was the person-hood of Persephone,
            of your lover, the woman you'd call your own


clad in gold not a book,  a dumb  book more boring than print, deader than a song,

 a  record, a disc,  a tape , we  wanted something alive

   int he moment,

alive,
 

                     hours later, our bodies tumbled
                                   headlong into the void

                                 ass over belly backwards,

                                                out of the mother's thrown womb
                             hurled panic,
                                        yet somehow softly landing  , falling  into the world o,  f,
                                                             immanence, the real thing, eh,

                                                             

               2

                       her kisses were mine
                               her lips were mine her happiness
                         which was joy on her face
                                      made me happy glow
                            ing to see her, glow,




                                              3

                                                   
                                               what word was that Orphee?
                                                                                                  we'll come back later

                                                       


                                    (not pretending like those  that      `     )










                                                                  `





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2017/11/30

names and , vows, not ___________________,




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                            vowels consonants and names not something you can explain
                                 



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you married someone ...



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 you married someone else else likewise breath  holding its turn
  night you were waiting  at the gown the door the waning moon
     arriving right at the hour she an acquaintance in good standing has failed
          to see what's under her nose

                  always knowing otherwise else-wise  i dont why they tell is the crew
                                 maniacs doing the end of others brood infinitely
           on the definite nothing



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                          the question is how many bodies did you love ?

                                              puffing onthe wind of your
                                            & this mouth 
                                                           kissing at you,

                                               tearing at your ______  (censored)


                                    panting i lie inside and on top around tangle loving you,


                                             too late,    too early
                                                                                       loving,

                                                                   

    3
                                       when you married you know kissing her was kissing me
                                               through the river of veil, pleonasm,

                                                    you were kissing her but me,

                                                        beloved you were beloved by everyone
                                                           more and often than you knew

                                                    beloved kissing her was kissing me
                                                         you were kissing your beloved missing me
                                                                      imagining love any other way folly folly a deux



                                                                               "I " have found the body of love,

                                                                       

                      __________


 
                             

2017/11/20

' Surfaced


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                              Someone said i surfaced but i was there all along,

                                                 simply on the other side of the page, you were, looking out a the sea, a correspondence state of reckoning, building big books, keeping others, aside, in your hohoho merry way, crumbling brick and mortar ,

______________________  Yet off the ladder,  F ranny,  +  Jill knowing better aren't seeking conspiracies of desert islands, but columns of monks going off into the desert? Or ,

                                off into the desperate building their 'churches' for centuries,

                       shapin' and retooling history according to a certain hysterical mode  l,
                                       not necessarily one you'd like to
                                    sleep with either,



                but Fanny kept her tool box ready for a moment's notice repartee could change
                             
                                anything , everything ,   love, war,      the tea  party,  a rhyme splendid going backwards,



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the secret correspondence of lovers ... and that's why, how come , i ,




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                the secret correspondence of lovers, not necessarily one of action and embraces, but of parallel lives over the years,\

               a whisper here a touch there, the odd call, and glance,

                 but that's , lyric, right? you want that you got it, like a strange room with a dozen or more in it she hearkens for the hour of his love,

                coming to  a total shade of  narcissistic believing and loving,



                  that's why you abandoned this 'lyric '   poetry  for the fictions

                       for there,

                taking an instance,

 Things  are Light,

                                    take  Jill for instance her backward glance side-stars on the lopping stair who'd dare convenience for any sake of false fortune, or staying sheep, a stray cow, a bended bullock,

a worn off filter from the cup of forms, in the disarray dispensed  your collage, Fanny knows better

                it's the  five o'clock shadow of desire  in the sunset yards, Anti knows better,

                                       she hears things which make her happy,

                                                                    ending all things with a comma,

                                                     

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2017/11/19

thoughts_ seconding

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'I' am re-reading Jorge Luis  Borge's  Labyrinths    ~ and did more work on the long poem. 
  ( the i is re-reading "  Borges writes ' all men who repeat a line of Shakespeare are William Shakespeare." )


                                                                                                                               so am I I repeating what ' I ' wrote . as fictions to selves create other selves. Selving the slide of the signifier I.
and   


        and  it's like spring almost


a delicate touch for you 
  velvet as the feather


I am a citizen
  we are citizens


    being a poet is just a part of that
   the world is round filled with good will


  good is the ether connecting

 and Russia the big world yes, a big grand world, one I know a little bit
(from the geography of writers
 And Dostoyevsky  
    and Gogol
                                
    and the
           and a handful of others


                          But  O Dostoevsky is such a good writer
 think of Ivan and the  great court scenes
                      and the escape organized near the end of the book   ~ did the characters end up in another country?
   Did they "reincarnate" into new characters ? Can the characters of a novel be reborn
as people in the 'real ' world?  and what is the 'real ' world?
  is the 'real' world a  ' reel ' one in  the sense of a movie? or characters in
   a Platonic spool ?
      O characters!
   o Movie! 
                  O love bodies o lover bodies.


I must write this fast   as I have to go out.....

                                             Thoughts for you     ~

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Plateau part


13/3/12


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2017/11/18

to sa the half hour hotel

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 the half hour hotel

the five seconde love  affair... clicks with the eyes a love affair en passant second s i the metro i love you ... i love you i ..  do i want you...

he a  friend has no idea what loneliness as he dates women steadily and hasa  stream of ex's and would be 's a good man... however, his sense of solitute is not like my own...


he says I have a hot date tomorrow night but its not a date at all. its a colleague who's taken.. anyhow, it hurt me a  little to hear him say this.



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Memoir 9/7/10
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over two and counting

                                                                                     _______________________________



when I find
my indefinite brain emulsion I''ll be fine the. whoop and way-out of redlight green blue churned amber'll spell the speedy day of indefinite articles. my sandals 'll pay your way. you know each day has been you. Not the You of I but the Ywou of Me and You your Me that's We.


that's called Love. With a capital C.
over each layer of skin i've not multiplie
d is your love. fresh as the day you were born and I .... you and finding was loving. one cannot forget that. everything is measured now by this love,
this invisible love, this in my gut that's you.

in the meantime we happy
as can be
as life is its rolling river


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C. Duffy 14/6/09
__________________________________ you were caught toting t he drafts ofa text


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Consider this text a required rewriting/ a match text to cover its signifier's death/ looking for a emulsion as it says

_____________  that's the key line

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November is ships



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   It's sails furling past sails masts, radio aerials too, and the thunder, the hum of ,,


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2017/11/17

|||||||||||||||||||||___the winter cold might_______________ ||||||||||||||||||

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 the winter cold might very well be,
              the winter coat might be  a very well to which whomsoever may recline
           in swaddling breasts and chiaroscuro obscure

                AS Jill said the book was debutante to its date pagan nation
              ration to the gothic gift of a god
                   not favored nor cultivated by her curing nor purring  of the obstiante mule
                           of lover waiting always for your fist move


she'd laid down in the street
                on the road, the avenue,
                             the boulevard,
                                    on your bed,
                             in your arms,
                                         like any other poem,

              ____   draft notes between meanwhile and meantime then,


                        back to t he comma,



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2017/11/11

gain again a gain what gathers up


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a gain is what gathers up
            and gathering up bringing pieces together were broke
                                    lifting not wilting the parts  fell off
                                                                            the narrow ridge seperating life and death



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2017/11/09

gain wishing



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again wishing her again wishing again wishing wishing again gain again well wishing wishing her
well healing whole again/home again/heal again

again wishing her again wishing again wishing wishing again gain again well wishing wishing her
well healing whole again/home again/heal again

again well her listen well to healing mending at the wishing was well







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well wishing her her wishing well again well wishing well again wishing her well

her well wishing well, her wishing again again well well wishing her
wish


2017/11/04

First week,

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                   first week ,

                                                        weekend of November,


                          world turning,

                                                              color changing, leafs falling,
                                            night ,     day,
                             roaming ,

                                                          raining,

                                              falling 

                                                                   light sideways,









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2017/11/01

suppositions of,

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  a lifetime of words , books, writing, words, deeds, words of deeds,f ailure of deeds,

            indeed! a word breath
                 a death
                     Puff you're gone into sun

                             god's air or sunlight ringing in the sky of the fortune and misfortune of others,

                                      but wait, start over,

                        words,  books, love, loving, carrying over, a fresh pail of water,



                                  hunger,

                                                       





       `

                                                     

re :call



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 recall means that just that call back the things which put out hanging off a draft of wind the heavy gods pounding off the rounds
  not reckoning on their needing cleaning /clouding/redoin'

               or

_______  like a first bk with printers errors
                        or compositer's capitals askew


  _______________

November

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   Just chaos cold  loneliness, the lies ,   betrayal, a way of ,

              a singular   manner,  a simple punch in t he mouth,

                             would end things, pretty quick,
                                          wouldnt' it ,
                                            (that poor thing,
                                               ending the ending the rainbow,)
                                                                     with that little whore
                                            or this little tramp
                                                or the enemy at the door herd at the well wall
                                                         enemy at the dam
                                                      ringing the tent
                                                           in  the middle of the round
                                                             
                          _____________

2017/10/27

some obsERVatIons and VaCations abOut LiteraRy ThEoRy

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The more literary theory produces the more it becomes a legitimized source of study all on its own. It

no longer relies on the originating works of writers. (But has now begun to exist beside it as quite 


legitimate activity of belles-lettres). Rather it does respect the "original," but brings to it a study of its "means of production" on all levels.  'The '


reverence has been put in abeyance, like authors have been since Barthes Foucault and company



. (are now parenthesised by the incredible industry but with not quite the same reverence it used to have.) Literary theory has become its own source and no longer relies primarily on the original texts 


which once gave literary criticism its raison d'etre. The author has lost his or her pre-eminence - there are different reasons for this; but for anyone who has written imaginative literature, there is a 

difference and a pre-eminence given to authors, especially poets. It seems we have lost the "religious"


or sacred feel that surrounds the poet in other times and in other societies. Why is it we spend so much time interpreting when the writing is in fact an interpretation of us and our lives?

Thy feet

sandal shod






thy feet to measure





he measures thy feet to metre



with real pleasure







the list of the literary theoreticians goes on and on an one
like a heliotrope _ goin by the sun



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It's only by writing that you breath, Oedipus, Orpheus,
it's all the same thing, twice, two fingers, twice, --
Birthdays are some thing to remember you didn't get what you want
-- O so life is thee lonely pain bowl, the Christ
of emptiness, and you think all those --- died in gas,
and the others, millions too, died in vain--
Christ,of Jack emptiness
Oh!, damn me out, to hell with Orpheus, his lousy bag-pipes
're meant for pretty girls that kill'em in the end,
or he gets gay, from grief, now that's a nice alliteration,

Mister Orpheus Oedipus with you deluxe edition ego, super-ego, trammeld libido Id, what Id is,/The Wall of Infinity,
and the other places you go, and how to print this,
and what to walk it, making it work , like the slow pride of time,
some bodies, and women , their breasts, make hurricanes happen,
not happiness, but men, over centried centuries /

I see them or something sees them "my" eyes,
which is more like my drive, instinct, cock, something in my head pre-cerebral, pre-Ceres, or rules, by the curve, by its curve,
Ceres not cerebral
Between the Reality and Truth stations


a word

my word

word
silenced
word discovered & held in the

cradle of my thumb







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You have joy in your life, laughter and hearth
not the old dead beats of the new and old,
like it goes in their breath
which misses the enlightenment
and their song
their enjambment



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2017/10/22

.. all down s

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Calling all downs. Calling all downs to dayne. Array! Surrection! Eireweeker to the wohld bludyn world.







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god's

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his biggest mistake  ~ 'winter'  as creating the universe the universal uni Vers al

    artist  looked the other way    and

everything froze


  the warmth of his look lost in the rays of 'outer' space like a  gypsy who cannot reprieve his son

falling falling falling into the infinite nether reaches of death's clamor
a dirty breath for the sinful breed of its crumbling masonry
    who owns  a                world?
     here comes everybody 

.

 childhood is like this  a long dream
    created in a gaze long glued to the past
ripped in nostalgia
buried under sighs that count no bridge
a  baby glancing a t the tide 
 his father's gone


the universe crumbles


  that version 
      of its uneven pinch
stolen by the tides


.
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  Memoirs of a winter retensity /0/1220 the return of the Pressed leaf
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2017/10/21

more than wishing




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 More than wishing well
          I hope for her the best
                   best healing best recovery from illness, sorrow, sickness,
                      the best for
                                    body and soul
                               

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a few thoughts crossed my mind and of course, there were more,&others poetry works cross oceans, planes of existence,


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the night opened up you came in
     g. went out
  it's not my fault you stayed in spite 'of me'
            against my will not planned
          by me for sure that's the
               day opening out the waves backlogged
                working their way
                              fluttering overhead the bees buzz
                               rigging the work fishermen make
             trusting the inspiration their hope
                                   Elle went about in along river
                                         a round tent in hand
                       Tu you came in a world rounder than universe
                                 portions of time came
                      I owed you perhaps another time
                     a body in life in the 17 c? was it that
                        riding in a carriage you and I stuck to the
                             turpitude of time the roving truck

                         there will be more there will always be more
                                  my complete works working incomplete , printed, seen, unseen, blogged,recorded,videod, audio, handwritten, collaged ,  all things collecting and uncollecting making the thing lasting,
    what is the work but  a work 'oriver an iver  forever and ever whe from everlasting to everlasting
                ochre the orient sky


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2017/10/18

and enter coast Wednesday it rhymes with boast

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             Xerxes the xerox god: crash of surf
             
                                                        smash of rock and water

                                  the hurricane pounded away ceaselessly people without water
                                                     
                                                 or electricity

                                                                         you survived




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the chariest

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n a sense switch that demonstrates that love can be both bitter and sweet, chary later came to mean "dear" or "cherished." That's how 16th-century English dramatist George Peele used it: "the chariest and the choicest queen, That ever did delight my royal eyes." Both sorrow and affection have largely faded from chary, however, and in Modern English the word is most often used as a synonym of either careful or sparing.




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2017/10/14

And how about the North and South coast?


We 'll talk about that another time how G. who'd said  I'd, you'd been, been ,  been crazy

    over,who  she rejected, refused, and denied me again and again

                                            went to the North Pole,

                      yes we ll talk about that,  how I at the ripe age of 30, ended up at the bottom

          of South America wending my way, to the Antarctic where I'd met a peculiar class of women
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             runaways, fugitives,


 we were not chary of their love,

                               affection tearing the frozen afternoons, the afterbirth of death and  life,


                                       for the sake of those which made sense
                                                              your cities grew wise
                                                                           air winding its way along avenues
                                                                                                   nimbly and free
                                                           goodbye to the car,
                                                                                   welcome to the world saunterer,





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as far as coasts go..

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   the East is more human, the west coast lost  that flair ages ago   ~ the east was smaller and poorer retaining


   heart, humanity, soul, care neighborliness without being intrusive and nosy,


closer to the wilds and rough poverty, not no fun, 

                                 dont lets mystify it,


East coast water

                                woods,  lands,    brooks,  falls, flats,     streamings,

                              magnetic hill,                              small towns, railroads,

                                             the ocean not far, fish,
                                         
                                    isn't love kinder in those region? cause love's always cruel otherwise
                                                              an worse in the bigger cities,

                                                         where capital chop chop chops it's hand wrecking everything
                                                                         with ego, and dollar signs and everything,
                                                                demanding the pretence to identity,


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On the west coast

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   on the west coast everything was rain and wet, rainy, wet, west coast, phoney and the bill

                   the bullshitters were bigger better more efficient,


                             __________________

How?

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   how many bodies   you got ?

                 at least 7? the active number of blogs, which are mine,

                in the antigravitational field of light,

                             not books, and dead gravity,





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d i c tions 1 , 2 , 3

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the capitalists tell you guilt
produce
and
all you do is produce
they wait
for your poverty
to steal
your riches
your labour
labour is god
the capitalist is theft
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(themachineworksthruguilt) 
(themachineworksthruguilt)
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____________telluwhatartisgetgetyerfriendstojointhecrowd_______________________________________________________________________________











rink to play

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Rink to play. Think fury its parrot squeeze and the schizophrenic knees beneath the battering. Not will but pill making ... sassafras... grass... for the obscene berry ~

_________________________Jill's moniter . Thief to her begging food from assholes never lent a page in their lives.

Jerks to the forward obscene harridan hags always righteous at their asshole's revival ~

____________ A truepenny for your thought winding out her master's pair she's gotten every subject right, ridge to the claim, sequestered to her unwilling game ~


________________ If Jill's one she's one two three ~.


 For months it was vain. Weather vanes. And rain. Tarnished the roof. Rood of the christ jack bobbin on the tarmac.                  Bucephalus yowling  to stoneed  road rock in her hooves. A cemented dog god for the clogs  ~ 
                                Warning its feet could break anything
 .
Because it was  grief and parrots. Pirates sullen as rose cleavage beggared in the further side. Dawn's best bracken-water. Not a soul able to make head or tails, following their limber. Gibberish to the busted rhum of their tents. Hanging on the high water. Coming over the hill and along flank side of the valley's girth. Bested by the window and the archers . Hoofing over the sheer size of its. Sizar and servant cutting back and the bugler trumpetting her fear. Some cry her cunt to the whole crazed alley.



with a gale coming on no one crowding its pent over dock, and. yes, my darling this's the judo chop of capitalism's last lamb chop.




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Thinking you knew something Jill on the wooden payphone old drug store pharmacy lent to the background of the film's production...



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  drafted

21/06__2010

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love love___________________a fateau from 2010_ april 15,th,


I've no idea what this film looks like or is about. Ive not seen it! In fact, the secret of my cinema is that I have not seen any movies,least of all one called
Love. What is it?

As for Godard I've never heard of him. I have not seen a movies since the late 90's. I n those days it was a thing .. we went to movies wearing hoods  slouched in a seat  ..I was a  'rebel.' ...

 Dark and darkness    a cigarette and Chinese food afterward and it was the West coast   and it was go(o)d  ... With a small      D like love, with a  Big . hahhahha Love 's a big L. Love the Big booboo WomanMan,the Big Bad L.   not the bores or square i knew and  ...


Saturday

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   what to say except it's here,

                                               ramshacklely 



              












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2017/10/12

Imperfect _daDa __ 1917 ___2017



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imperfect corrections 100 years  1917
 night barred day
 the ship ran an oasis remembering kings gave in
    docks running dry your hope stir and mix bang bang dada
               dada a word bust groin
   things shopped  bruises negative  superlative word why brown eyed
             her darling socks inviting you in
             the clutter opened up festooning airs pride danced the maximum
 rate of vineyards and olav olives for her mouth down south

                  this way of holding her hair her ears tinily
                   over that old town
                                  staying out against the war

                                               combusting promise forced combination
                juxtaposition a way of life and this first night in the cabaret
                     where no deaths heads no soldiers
                               no war no navies no trenches
                                                                the friends gathered in the  racket




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2017/10/11

Wed

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                              wednesday   emptiness  filled



                                                               the foothills the mountains 











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2017/10/07

Sample of a really 'bad' poem with the so called title : between


first of all you can't see it!


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  1.  why is this a bad poem take each potato what a thing a crossoverd body what not's her ah ah hand invisible


broke by life's sputter putter eternal glub love bugboo
achoo that two dollar mile at the dollar rama
etc.

a deal working for amblies which holdout on the prairies




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between these eyes your sleep marries thought
   captures the warm its seizure your day 
night passes passes its willing caring to know 
    answer this way your love speaks 
t'enderness
not the crude
lover you walked away from so arrogant your ass
wagging its two dollar smile that orange cummerbund wrapping
it back forth back and forth like a f__k that's gone bad
 meanwhile a woman in the side-seat in the back has gotten old
I'gnored her. She was loving . She was submission. I wanted her too
much. And you? where are you darling calling on the coming need
in your French potato?












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2017/10/03

Tuesday

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      Tuesday was a day like any other without your loving body
                      beside me a hold in this world, lost beside, emptiness,




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   but commas continue everything,
                                                                  blogs aren't books and when that's gotten
everything's forgotten


 begotten in the new beholden rainbow


                                                                            of love's body and the comma,


                                         the caring shoulders,

                                                                                   and looking listening for that
                                         new beat,

                                                       not pretending a book

                                                                    but looking for that new body


                                                 that new human body ever light,


                           
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2017/10/02

the world this world,

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              The world this world's a bedlam , it revealed itself  a'gain   ,

                       it usualy does show that terrible side, it does here or there,
                                  human madness in one form and another,



                      At the same moment the same day and hour thousands of actions of goodness took place,

                             I am thinking of her, and whatever ails her, whatever is causing her sickness

                                let her be well, and recover,            let her find her path 

                                               on the walking tour of life,

                                                 
                                                 always hoping for her best

                                          wishing for hers and the best of others

                                                                  in this world, this place of hope and breath,

                                                                              more birth more life,





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2017/10/01

those imperfect


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               those imperfect posts of mine always under recall calling coming back working


                                           changing here touching up there, a little, there, ah, better

                                now ,a  touch of this,  that,

                            as                       a                   lover             w     o      u      l                   d


            n           o                  m                        a          t            t                e                          r







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dance


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     ' I would only believe in a  god who dances ' Nietzsche wrote...

                    all my life I danced and my god is a dancing one

                                              she's metamorphoses pure becoming devenir

                                                              waves over the universe
                 her voice chiming with the chord of cosmos


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                                              theres no conflict between the earth and sky
                                                     
                                                             which coexist

                                                                         paradox of light and dark
                                       moon and earth
                                                         half shadowing over her sky her face
                                    her loves and hate
                                                                    growing beckoning being born

                                   dying losing being born again

                                                        lifted off in the tundra of spirit

                                               if she's happy for an hour
                                                                 the sun rises on her face


                                    I swooned at the idea of her happiness
                                                                                  gifted gold goddess

                                                      prayers & lifted high spirits ran into the heavens

                               on her behalf
                                                            half
                                                               
                                                      her  better





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